Boiling Points

You escape me
like volatile vapors
you suffocate me as
seething lies escape your mouth
temperaments rise
body temperatures febrile
relentlessly hot and beaten
hectic and congested
desperate for reprieve from
distorted senses
intact deceits
a rotting core that speaks in vain
words befitting of a depraved conscious
degenerating into malice.

I simply stand
eyes agape
overcome with mystique
forgetting that you rinse and repeat
a trend with no end.
I've gone mad one too many times
head spinning like an exorcist scene
spewing derogatory wishes at you
eventhough its not true.

You bring out the worst in me
yet manage to make me love you
with all the same intensity.

-M.Peña

"Si Tu Me Olvidas"

Quiero que sepas
una cosa.

Tú sabes cómo es esto:
si miro
la luna de cristal, la rama roja
del lento otoño en mi ventana,
si toco
junto al fuego
la impalpable ceniza
o el arrugado cuerpo de la leña,
todo me lleva a ti,
como si todo lo que existe:
aromas, luz, metales,
fueran pequeños barcos que navegan
hacia las islas tuyas que me aguardan.

Ahora bien,
si poco a poco dejas de quererme
dejaré de quererte poco a poco.

Si de pronto
me olvidas
no me busques,
que ya te habré olvidado.

Si consideras largo y loco
el viento de banderas
que pasa por mi vida
y te decides
a dejarme a la orilla
del corazón en que tengo raíces,
piensa
que en esa día,
a esa hora
levantaré los brazos
y saldrán mis raíces
a buscar otra tierra.

Pero
si cada día,
cada hora,
sientes que a mí estás destinada
con dulzura implacable,
si cada día sube
una flor a tus labios a buscarme,
ay amor mío, ay mía,
en mí todo ese fuego se repite,
en mí nada se apaga ni se olvida,
mi amor se nutre de tu amor, amada,
y mientras vivas estará en tus brazos
sin salir de los míos.

-Pablo Neruda

Second Passions

I don't have a plan
but check how I move
with swift feet
and a curious heart beat
back into sex, love, pain
enraptured impulses
crave one more chance.
I'll let it go with a flow
unrestrained by thoughts
that tense back motions
towards your lips.
That embrace is all I think of.
I still feel your heat
rushing through me
vaccinated by desire
immune to aches
and consuming fears.
A medicine made
to cure false illusions
and neglect caused by confusion
grazing chills down my spine
its a thrill
just being by your side.
I won't denounce this fervor, this temper,
or this voice.

-M.Peña

"Human Nature"

Looking Out

Across The Night-Time

The City Winks A Sleepless Eye

Hear Her Voice

Shake My Window

Sweet Seducing Sighs

Get Me Out

Into The Night-Time

Four Walls Won't Hold Me

Tonight

If This Town

Is Just An Apple

Then Let Me Take A Bite

If They Say -

Why, Why, Tell 'Em That Is

Human Nature

Why, Why, Does He Do Me

That Way

If They Say -

Why, Why, Tell 'Em That Is

Human Nature

Why, Why, Does He Do Me That Way

Reaching Out

To Touch A Stranger

Electric Eyes Are Ev'rywhere

See That Girl

She Knows I'm Watching

She Likes The Way I Stare

If They Say -

Why, Why, Tell 'Em That Is Human Nature

Why, Why, Does He Do Me That Way

If They Say -

Why, Why, Tell 'Em That Is Human Nature

Why, Why, Does He Do Me That Way

I Like Livin' This Way

I Like Lovin' This Way

Looking Out

Across The Morning

The City's Heart Begins To Beat

Reaching Out

I Touch Her Shoulder

I'm Dreaming Of The Street

If They Say -

Why, Why, Tell 'Em That Is Human Nature

Why, Why, Does He Do Me That Way

If They Say -

Why, Why, Tell 'Em That Is Human Nature

Why, Why, Does He Do Me That Way

I Like Livin' This Way

-Michael Jackson

(one of my fave songs)

Deep Breath In
Fill your lungs
Exhale Out
Head to core
Shoulders down
Neck long
Legs together
At tabletop
Legs at 45 degree angle
Arms to your side
the "100"
Aghhhhhh
Don't hold your breath!
Child's pose
Plank pose
Spine stretched
Downward facing dog
Walk back
Roll up every vertebrae
Hang loose

The sounds of a hard core Pilates class.
I suffer because I want this great ass to stay tight. :-)

-M.Pena

I kept thinking to myself today
What if
What if
What if
One change would have motioned a different set of events
But then I realized I'm not living the life I imagined for myself nor will I. I can't change anything and I can't wish for a different outcome. My life is beautiful with its faults, turns, highs and lows. I'm just meant to live it.

-M.Pena

Off the beaten path

Four beaten paths
worked desolate and rigorous
to the raw core I plunged each time
footsteps dotted each landscape
while grim steps planned my escape.
With ingrained memories
I'll brush through this new chance
floating above unexplored territory
changing my ways
expecting no mercies
reaching immeasurable heights
without falling in a consumed daze
endless risks
eternal fates
await hastily
for me
to unravel these warped webs
and find a clear route to entrancing bliss

-M.Peña

SAMO as an end to mindwash religion, nowhere politics, and bogus Philosophy
-Jean Michel Basquiat

Mis Paredes

Entre las paredes se quedaron
los secretos
como pensamientos de una mirada
fue lo unico que me dejaste
aparte de tus nubladas palabras
y la foto de tu sonrisa se queda
en mi ventana reflecionada
y tus cuentos y teorías de la vida
todavia las escucho como
viento del mar resfriado
me recuerdo tu llegada
callada y constelada
el beso que me calentaba
entragada y desvelada
todavia reso por ti
con calma en mi cama
porque bebi de tu agua,
respire de tu aire,
y creci como flor enriquecida
en tu espacio
y aunque caen los petalos
se queda el fruto protegido
de una cosecha crecida en secreto
eres el cucullo de la noche
que siempre amaneceras pegado
de mis paredes.

-M. Peña

"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse

than the suffering itself. And no heart has ever

suffered when it goes in search of its dream

...

but there is suffering in life

and there are defeats

No one can avoid them but its better to lose

some of the battles in the struggles for

your dreams than to be defeated without

ever knowing what you're fighting for"

-Paolo Coelho

Me siento desesperada, desvelada,
y triste
Mi alma larga gritos de soledad
y el espacio vacio dentro de mi
se refleja como un ueco en el aire
no se encuentra ni su carisia,
ni su sonrisa
No me pregunten mas
que no tengo el donde, el cuando,
ni el porque.

-M.Peña

I come from a place of sun, of glow,
of heat that radiates
from my innermost energy
A pulse, a beat, a sensory stimuli
that evokes the truth
I elicit, I provoke, I envision
the tangible
Its imminent.
Obscurity stings.

-M.Peña

Saving Grace

I'll save my grace
for times unchanged
unmarked by hopeless, desperate faces
Propriety is not for humbled souls
that grieve from within
no vain to take their anguish away
just daily disillusions
investing in their pain
no double takes
no hand to lend the way
embittered from estrangement
afflicted by
an agonized mind
a cruel fate seen through
dingy rose colored glasses
I'll walk on by and look away
then let prayers expunge my guilt
for neglect is easier than grievances
that reckon with this conscience

-M.Peña

Listen

I don't contemplate tomorrow nor do I need to
I'd like to know you right now
without motive, or reason, or logic
my curiosity is a virtue
my naiveté a weakness
my senses heightened by every touch,
every thought, and taste of you
Can I still be your butterfly?
Will you still caress my face with your hands?
Kiss me like you mean it?
What if I promise you my truth,
my piety, my unapologetic reality?
Will you then accept my imperfections?

I want you just the way you are

Should you forget who you are,
I'll remind you
I'll protect you from your
ludicrous thoughts and frantic dreams
I'll be your pillow for comfort and cushion
at the end of a long, vicious day
...the ones that frequent your life all too often
I want to be the light in your eyes.
Make you smile, keep you high,
even make you cry
say a prayer for your pain
and rub your stress away
I'm just a catalyst for love

-M.Peña

Immortal words that resonate
Feel it nailed to your skin
Hear it in the distance
Tell me you believe
Faith is an echo
A silence

-M.Peña

"I got lost in the night, without the light of your eyelids,

and when the night surrounded me I was born again:

I was the owner of my own darkness"

-Pablo Neruda

When does it become right?
this lust at first sight
Inaudible, unspeakable is this
tenderness and sensuality
Primitive are these senses that
cling beneath our skin
A gallery of painted images
reflected by our dreams
A novel thats finished its prologue
a voice for what will be
So, tell me
What do you think you'll get from me?

Mar

Encounters

Sorries won't cut it this time
not sure what can be said
that won't make me do cannonballs
to the ends of the earth
Forgive and forget does not exist
we crash, we wound, we scar and
we hope that no part of us dies.
I'd rather have amnesia than
relive the anxiety, the lies, and
the aneurisms that blow fuses
through my brain and trickle
numbness through my limbs.
I won't believe what you say
I'm sure you'll confuse what my love is
Natural instincts say don't let you do this
Encounters that mimic
reverse imageries of utopias
....and still this bubble won't pop.

Enraged, I scream.
Listless, I stare.
In perpetual disarray, I wander.
Just to find that it won't change a thing.

-M.Peña

Tengo Visiones

Tengo visiones
Sentada en una galeria
con piso de marmol y mesedoras viejas
hechas de mimbre

Veo el campo.

Adornada de verdes arboles, flores,
piedras y tierra blanca
se siente y huele a lluvia fresca
el olor de fogon intoxica el aire
un silencio que quema el alma
un sabor a casa
nostalgica como mi niñez
miro desde dentro afuera
con mis ojos y mi ser
y siento PAZ.
Creo quel solo rayo de sol
me tocara la piel y me cerara los ojos
hasta ver visiones.

-M.Peña

Subliminal messages
Interpreted by receptive and
fueling minds
.......indulgent and undogmatic
in knowledge
often missed by shallow minds
answers that reveal themselves
in pages, symbols , faces and dreams alike
a light footprint in the midst of chaos
washed away by the roll of a tide
trampled by everyday idiosyncrasies
affecting our subconscious states of mind
and altering our actions, our attitudes, our intuition
changes that occur
in essential secret.

M.Peña

En mi Cama

Quiero levantarme contigo
Un amanecer en qual ceramos la noche
Pintame la piel de besos
Aropame de tu calor
Tu sombra es la diferencia
despues del largo viaje
La claridad esta en mis ojos y
en mi alma.

M.Peña

"Podran cortar todas las flores pero, no podran detener la
primavera"
-Pablo Neruda

Untitled

I find myself buried in his peaks and valleys
crevices that make way for
my lips, my tears, my breath
A lullaby is what I hear
from his relentless heart drones and hums
A synchronization of beats, of energy,
of touch that might spiral out of control
A chain reaction I can't call my own
A natural high not dope-induced
but coma-induced
Floating above clouds and the light of the moon
and yet I'm grounded
Enveloped in its crescent shape I lay
Entwined I defy gravity and cascade
lightly into a dream beneath my eyes
Paramnesia?
Phenomenal hypnosis?
Don't arouse me from my conscious sedation

M.Peña

Resignation

Out of reach
Out of touch
Is that creation
In his hand
I long for
I shall wait
for raining miracles
to grace my windows
of faith
of bliss
of passion
I won't fall
into foolish acts
from disgraceful egos
sacrificing blinding heat
from my core
never the ONE
speaking in tongues
to save this soul
that vicariously repents
during inept solitude
light is dark
when caste in fear
but words like prayers de mystify
obscure sentiments
intense indignation
lust and urges alike
renounce my spirit
In cascading water
and baptize me with vitality
my will divine
my breath eager
for transitions
into sanctity

M.Peña

A stab in the heart.
Hurts.
LOVE IS STRONGER THAN PAIN
Breathe.
Even if you feel you can't.
Live.
Our existence flows in light speeds.
Forgive.
Perfection dwells in no one.
Cry.
To cleanse your soul.
Play.
A song for each phase of your existence.

M.Peña

Spring deceived me with kisses
that never bloomed
I unravel my palms
held tight with humility
dropping buds filled with love
as wishes trickle spirals in a puddle
and the winds brush warmth
on my cheek
for comfort
I feel your void in the air
and tiptoe into a deserted silent breeze

M.Peña

I'm new to blogging and I hope I'm welcomed in unfamiliar territory. I'll thank the person who got my creative juices flowing. You know who you are. ;-*

"And now here is my secret, a very simple secret; it
is only with the heart that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eye."

-from Le Petit Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry