Letting go. It was past due.

IF MY HEART STOPPED BEATING, MAYBE THEN IT WOULDN'T HURT SO MUCH.

-broken-

Inspiraciones del dia

"En todas las lenguas del mundo hay un mísmo dicho: ojos que no ven, corazón que no siente. Pues yo afirmo que no hay nada más falso que eso; cuánto más lejos, más cerca del corazón están los sentimientos que intentamos sofocar y olvidar..."


"Un niño siempre puede enseñar tres cosas a un adulto: a ponerse contento sin motivo, a estar siempre ocupado con algo y a saber exigir con todas sus fuerzas aquéllo que desea."


"Lo que ahoga a alguien no es caerse al río, sino mantenerse sumergido en él."


"Esperar duele. Olvidar duele. Pero el peor de los sufrimientos es no saber qué decisión tomar."


"Si tienes la paciencia de la tierra, la pureza del agua y la justicia del viento, entonces eres libre."

el es perfección- Paulo Coelho

Me reflejo en naturaleza

Si vias podido escuchar como gritaban las chicharras...
Hasta en pleno sol se oian sus desvelos
O talves sus resuelos de felicidad.
Fue una maravilla como me cantaban
y sus voces, me cautivo con sus arrullos.
Y pensando en ti por la mañana,
Veia como caia la lluvia
y salian los arcoiris para saludar ese amanecer
detras de las montañas.
Solo se destacaba un mar de verdes matas y de palos
llenos del fruto de su amor.
Se alimentaban con el agua, con el sol, y con el aire
como hacemos tu y yo.
Agarraditos de la mano y envueltos uno en el otro
estan las tierras, las verduras, el rio, y el cielo
como estamos tu y yo
de cuerpo, de mente, y de corazon.
No se niega la naturaleza que vive en nosotros
Es un reflejo de lo que veimos y vivimos
cada dia en puro amor.

-M. Peña

Quiero tenerte piel a piel
Cara a cara
y labios entres labios
Dime que sientes cada impulso de mi amor
y mi deseo por ti
Es incurable mi empeno
incalculable hasta adonde llega
Mi destino se desenvuelve en tu pecho
Mas alla del sueno esta un gran amor
no se alejara mas
ya basta tus indecisiones
tus razones que son de testaduro.

-M. Pena

Crash into me

Crash into me.
The way the waves carress the flowing masses of rocks,
It seems like they were placed there one by one.
Crash into me.
The way the wind graciously blows over the sea of palms,
It seems like they speak back to the sea.
Crash into me.
The way the salt sticks to my lips and dewy skin,
It seems like I'm being spiced up for you.
Crash into me.
The way the sun's glare fires me up from the inside out,
It seems like your love lives in every essence of nature.
It ingeniously crashes into me
..and reminds me that you're an eclipse.
I'm enveloped in your love's shadow now and always.

-M. Pena

I'll be...
The chocolate quik to your milk
The queso to your mangu
The morir to your sonando
The meat to your rice+beans
The leche to your cafe bustelo
The chicharron to your mofongo
The rum to your coke
The guira to your merengue
Even the turn to your salsa step
The vicks to your vaporub
The vroom to your hot wheels
The pen to your paper
The 100 beats to your heart
The candy to your eye
The cuddler to your nook
The butterfly to your sunrise
The dream to your sleep
The "Oooo" to your orgasm
The morena to your sexy self

I'll be the flavor in your life...
I think I can complete you.

-M. Pena

So yesterday, 2 white doves landed in front of me on my walk to the bus stop. I didn't think much of it and kept walking. Today, 1 white dove landed in front of me and then flew off to a tree right in the distance. Am I supposed to take this as a sign? Do I believe in good luck omens?
Apparently, doves symbolize peace and purity. It can also symbolize good news coming my way. I decided I should believe in these beautiful things. I need some GOOD to come to my life.
-M. Pena

...locked in my heart

Distance is relative
Irrelevant in my mind and contingent only for physicality
The proportions of our connection are boundless,
multiplied by the stars that align above us
Energies transmitted through the sky
Its the night that brings our bodies together
Interlocking gazes
Intertwining spaces
I could wrap myself in you for days
Warm my skin with your ardent and impassioned touch
I could kiss you for years
Linger on by the whisper of a breath
by the braid or the twist of your hair
I could dive into your pillow head first,
or just bottle up your masculine scent and take it home
anything to keep you close, keep you mine

...at least till the sun comes up.

-M. Peña

Excerpts from "As a Man Thinketh" by James Allen

The aphorism, "As a man thinketh in his heart so is he"

P.19

"Of all the beautiful truths pertaining to the soul which have been restored and brought to light in this age, none is more gladdening or fruitful of divine promise and confidence than this---that man is the master of thought, the molder of character, and the maker and shaper of condition, environment, and destiny.
As a being of Power, Intelligence, and Love, and the lord of his own thoughts, man holds the key to every situation, and contains within himself that transforming and regenerative agency by which he may make himself what he wills."

P.40

"The world is your kaleidoscope, and the varying combinations of colors, which at every succeeding moment it presents to you, are the exquisitely adjusted pictures of your evermoving thoughts."

P.46

"Strong, pure, and happy thoughts build up the body in vigor and grace. The body is a delicate and plastic instrument, which responds readily to the thoughts by which it is impressed, and habits of thought will produce their own effects, good or bad, upon it.
Men will continue to have impure and poisoned blood, so long as they propagate unclean thoughts. Out of a clean heart comes a clean life and a clean body. Out of a defiled mind proceeds a defiled life and a corrupt body. Thought is the font of action, life, and manifestation; make the fountain pure, and all will be pure."

El amor es una fantasia, y una existencia
Llena la mente de illusiones
Y no se entiende
te engana,
te siega,
te da vida

-M. Pena

I'll make this one real simple. No dictionary required.

I just want to forget you. But I can't.



I have not healed. My eyes still grieve in secret.
I'm still innocent in this open-ended story.
You left me on the corner...literally.
Confused and distraught I ran away too...never to look in your eyes again.
Hoping a bad day was to blame for the awkward space right in between us.
I could wish I'd never met you, but the truth is you were a short lived blessing in disguise.
Razor-sharp and tender at the same time.
You stole my heart at first smile.
Created a severe and beautifully broken tear.
I only had enough time to absorb you like a glass of wine.
Just tangled myself in your breath every night.
No heartbreak is ever fair.
But your reasons just made NO SENSE.
Not with the connection I know we had.
It all started with your favorite kind of dance.
So, I only remember the good in you.
I tell myself over and over,
I just need one more night with you.
One more taste of you.
One more chance
to prove I'm the one for you.
Gullible enough, even foolish enough to fall for you,
but smart enough to know this tale is one-sided.
I'm just a believer, a lover, not a mind-reader.
You simply broke my heart, Mr.

-M. Peña

Ah, by the light of the moon

Tonight's full moon
Tonight's crisp summer air
Tonight's sound and rhythm
Takes me to a bliss filled realm.
One with divine capabilities,
entrancing a delicious and
fully absorbent sleep syndrome
to graze my face.
My eyelids dance
to the point of transportation,
like a superimposed dream,
its where I'm supposed to be.
Like a moment of perfect clarity,
I'll externalize my thoughts
along this broken road.
Embody them in unrestrained dust.
I have nothing to lose but my negativism,
a pessimism that contentiously
defies an idealism.
I'll just look on my bright side,
trusting in a virtuous trade,
a revolutionized change,
contracting sublime juices through my mind.
My momentum will soar
I'll peak mid-flight
but I dare not dip into a
listless, inorganic, and insensible melancholy.
This gorgeous night is my auspicious consolation prize.

-M. Peña

Cayo Levantado, Dominican Republic

The countdown begins:

12 days left to paradise

- M. Peña

Que tu puedo dar que ya no tienes?

Te ofrezco mis besos...
en aire libre
y sin suspiro
haz lo que quiera con esta boca tuya
y agarra mi desvelo en tus brazos.
Un beso, que como el mar no tiene fin
que se queda flotando en el atardecer
que se ve por dias en mi sonrisa.
Me atrapaste en el amor
en esta historia
en esta locura que nos tropezo
nos perdimos de camino
y envenenaste mi razon.
Hiciste de mi una luz apagada
pero necessito tu rayito
para calentarme el alma.
Te ofrecera mis besos, que ya son tuyos.

-M. Peña