I have learned...

I have learned the hard way...



Sheltered in perfection
I saw only light first
only the pure and sterling.


In my disconcerted naivete,
my heart has never seen hate
but trails of dirt have always seemed to follow.


A simple vocation-
Not to judge anyone's life
I know my own pain and renunciation...but
My path is not the only and correct path.


A simple realization-
not everything is worth understanding
that's why mystery exists.

A not-so-simple emotion-
I've consistently ignored my nightmares
always seeking refuge
from opinions
though slowly pushing everyone aside
with a shove from my silence.
I subliminally intended
to bury these savage-like urges
deep under your name.
The shame has penetrated me
like a curse brewing voodoo.
Your face, your name,
your immoral self-indulgence,
I'd rather consider blasphemy.
You led this road away from me,
made me redefine you.
Crushed my heart and left it bleeding
messed with my uncorrupted psyche...


Not even the salt in my naked wound
has let me shed a tear for you.
Don't even need you to apologize,
I will not forgive careless debauchery.
I'm numb.


-M. Peña