What now?

Now...
I collide with the air I breathe
just to feel something

Now...
I dance to fill my body with rhythm
to create energy
and hear a language I understand
with no translations

Now...
I feel lonely from time to time
so I type to make the minutes pass
because the keyboard keeps me company

Before...
I wrote from curiosity
to understand you better
to get a piece of you

Now...
I write to discover myself
and hear myself think
everything seems clearer
when my pen's out of ink

Now...
I write because its the only way
I can talk to you anymore
scream at you for leaving me
lust for you without seeing you
or touching you

Now...
I write so you can read right through me
because you left me speechless,
loveless, and crazed

Now what?
I'll write to inspire
to conspire with my thoughts
to realize that in losing you
I'm still reading myself
over and over again

-M.Peña